We Are Who We Are

My FFXI Character in street clothes.

Before you ask, the answer is yes.  I drew this and it took me from 3-4  hours to do this.  I don't have my photoshop at the moment, and let me tell you, I hate not having it.  I need to find the CD in order to add it to my new/hand-me down computer.

Alright...so I've been in a slump since I've been out of school, but I needed to do something.  If the bottom half of the picture looks half assed...that's because it is.  I fell in love with the top half and that was it, the rest didn't matter to me.  I also know that FFXI never dress like this, but I blame the influence to this outfit on Ke$ha's song on the radio "We r Who We r" or something like that.  I literally listened to it for the entire time i was drawing this.  I've also have never felt I've drawn a face as nice (for my work) like this and I can't say how proud of myself I am.  I just wanted to share my work with the rest of you all, and hope you enjoy see it.

Feeling a Little Better

Change to 360 to see pictures if you're interested.

I hope everyone has been doing well. I haven't really been around much lately. Been down in the dumps cause of the stuff going on with my grandma. She had gone back to the hospital, nearly died, but she is coming home tomorrow. So I'll get to see her then.

This song has a lot of power behind it, and I think Celtic Woman bring even more behind that. I don't want to get into an argument about this song being stolen from Icelandic...or what not...or how ever it was spelled, stolen or not, it is a powerful powerful song. It really puts my feelings in perspective because of all the people around me that care. I really love you all. If you wonder where the pictures are from...they are fan-arts to the anime Hetalia (the APH is Axis Powers Hetalia) It's basically takes stereotypes of countries, gives them a character to represent those stereotypes, and it goes from there. Basically puts a spin on history with humor (and history inaccuracies) but I couldn't help but cry with the battle when America became free from England. A great comment on the video to this makes me agree greatly with it.

This encapsulates so many things.

Not just characters, but nations, histories, battles, victories and losses. We’re there for each other, even after we were once opposed. It shows allegiances, forgiveness, strength, love. Without one another, we wouldn’t have the world we have today.

Hetalia's connected us into a community with members from all over the world. It's grown past the borders of the show, into palpable friendships.

It’s why I love this AMV, and why I’m proud to be a Hetalia fan.

EnkaiNami

It's a great Anime. The whole series is on YouTube right now under Funimation's channel. The first episode is in english (and yes they are only like 5 minutes each) and with all the different accents, it just puts more enjoyment for watching it in the dub format.

Celtic Woman "You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;

When troubles come and my heart burdened be;

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up: To more than I can be.

Edward Maya & Mia Martina - Stereo Love

Happy Thanksgiving all. I didn't know if I was going to be able to get on here and blog, but I decided I could. I wanted to post up this video because I thought I would give a review on it.

First off, I was blown away with this song. When I first heard it on the radio I really loved the melody. The song reminded me of that one city in Italy (I think) that you would see in cartoons where everywhere was covered in water and you would use a boat to get around. Well either way, it gave it a romantic feel to it. Afterwards I found the lyrics and I was blown away with how everything just seemed to flow together in this song. The lyrics are beautiful and amazing and the artist really did a good job with singing her part.

This song gives me the feel of a trance style song, I could be wrong with saying that, but it just gives me one of those feelings when I close my eyes and let the melody take me away into it's own world.

I give it a 5 star review and you should check it out...heck...I'm giving you the link to the video :) Just click.

Have a good night.

Lyrics: "Stereo Love" Edward Maya featuring Mia Martina

When you gonna stop breakin' my heart?

I don't wanna be another one

Paying for the things I've never done

Don't let go, don't let go, to my love

Can I get to your soul

Can you get to my thoughts

Can you promise we won't let go?

All the things that I need

All the things that you need

You can make it feel so real

'Cause you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I touch your body

I feel I'm losing control

'Cause you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I see you baby

I just don't wanna let go

I hate to see you cry

Your smile is a beautiful lie

I hate to see you cry

My love is dying inside

I can fix all those lies

But baby, baby, I run

But I'm running to you

You won't see me cry

I'm hiding inside

My heart is in pain

But I'm smiling for you

Can I get to your soul

Can you get to my thoughts

Can you promise we won't let go?

All the things that I need

All the things that you need

You make it feel so real

'Cause you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I touch your body

I feel I'm losing control

'Cause you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I see you baby

I just don't wanna let go

When you gonna stop breakin' my heart?

Don't let go, don't let go, to my love

I hate to see you cry

Your smile is a beautiful lie

I hate to see you cry

My love is dying inside

I hate to see you cry

My love is dying inside

I hate to see you cry

My love is dying inside

I can fix all those lies

But baby, baby, I run

But I'm running to you

You won't see me cry

I'm hiding inside

My heart is in pain

But I'm smiling for you

Oh baby I'll try

To make the things right

I need you more than air

When I'm not with you

Please don't ask me why

Just kiss me this time

My only dream

Is about you and I

Dance to Me (Warning Girly Content)

I'm not much of a religious fan, but with this song I make an exception. This song...I want it as my wedding song...it's just so pretty, and I can take it as a long song between two people. This song just gives me the warm fuzzies...

Yes...I'm a girl...even though others may not notice it. I have my "girly" fantasies a dreams. I want to walk down the isle wearing a beautiful white dress. When I hear this song, I can picture the first dance at the wedding reception.

Anyways...just a lot of work this week...not much of anything else. Saw the Harry Potter movie, it's really good, but I won't say much here. So no worries about spoilers :) If I don't post by Thursday...I'll say it now.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)

Lyrics to Song: "Dance to Me" Storyside B

Dance to me

You're the only one I know

You're the only one I'll show

Just how deep my love runs through

I'll take a leap of faith toward you

I've face the whole world living fearless

Take me, as I am

Know me, this is who I am

You're why I've searched this world

You're what I've waited for

Stay here, won't you please

Dance to me

You've showed me for the first time

Love so perfect, so divine

Show me how

Turn me around

Touch me now

Feeling the sound

I can see you flow so freely

Turning, than you look at me and say

You're why I've searched this world

You're what I'm waiting for

Stay here, just for a while

Stay here, just you and I

'Cause you're all I'm dreaming of

You waking in my arms

Stay here, won't you please

Dance to me

Won't you dance to me

Take me away

Take me away

Take me, take me, take me away

'Cause you're why I've searched this world

You're what I've waited for

Stay here, just for a while

Stay here, just you and I

'Cause you're all I'm dreaming

You waking in my arms

Stay here, wont you please

Dance to me

Yeah

Stay here, wont you please

Dance to me

Won't you dance to me

Dance to me, yeah

Pina Colada Boy

I needed something to lighten the mood...this is my new addiction...please :) give it a listen. It's a really catchy song...and Masu...you're gonna kill me :) Cause this song is another 10 Minutes.

When it rains...it becomes a hurricane.

Yes, it passes right over pours to a hurricane.  Stress and it seems everything at work is breaking.  Photolab is completely down.  The HP machines, which are amazing and never seem to break...well...they didn't break...but they did run out of ink...and if I can ever find the genius who put an empty ink cartridge back on our supplies shelf...IN THE BOX...needs to be shot.

Last night...my family recieved the news from the doctors from my Grandmother's test...

Back story:

Last Friday my grandma went in for a doctor's appointment.  They took an xray of her chest after they told her she had phemonia (sp?)  Well with the xray showing more infection...and her white blood cell count not showing anything out of the ordinary...they want a test.

Monday came, and my Grandmother went to the hospital and had a scope take a piece of the infection form her lung.  The doctor was a real joke...didn't even tell my mother or my grandfather that my grandmother was awake and in her room for over and hour and a half after the surgery was done, then to top it off wouldn't show his face afterwards, so they let my grandmother come home.

Current as of yesterday:

Well...the test results came in.  My mother called me earlier that day to ask me if she wanted her to call when they got the news or when she got home.  I told her "Well...depends on the news...if it's bad...don't worry about driving home and talking..."

She came home.  She was pretty quiet and she walked to my door.  At the time...I was playing world of warcraft and doing some exploring to uncover all the maps...  At that point she told me...

"Stage 3 Lung Cancer"

I don't think I really thought much after that...I am still sorta numb feeling I suppose...  my grandmother...a second mother to me...has stage 3 cancer...

I really can't think straight...just giving you all a little update...I'll write more later when I can think clearly.

TGI...T?

TGIF...er...TGIT?

Yes, thank goodness it's Tuesday.  Know why?  Well, I really don't expect you guys to know why.  I've worked the last seven days and today is the first of my three day "weekend" as I'll call it.  Let me tell you, it's been a horrible...horrible weekend...

First off Saturday was just busy as all get out with very little coverage on our sale's floor.  Sunday...Sunday was hell that just kept getting worse and worse.  It started off with two people covering the sales floor at 7am.  That's sometimes more then what I am used to...  Well let's see...  I went to check who was coming in to work and what times...I come to find out that no one basically was coming in until 11am that day...

What the hell??  Seriously...how can you expect two people to cover the entire store when there is two people to cover it...you can't...you just can't.  To top it off...I have to watch Electronics and Jewlery and those can't be unattended..so if I went on break, the other would have to watch and there is no way a person can do hardware/fabrics/sporting goods ...you can't.  I bother the service desk and I am able to get a cashier to cover me about 9am that morning for break...I was hungry :(

The cashier comes back and this couple wants to buy a ring and want it set out to be sized just as I am about to go on break...well I have to help them.  So I do so, and it's another 20 mintues before I go on break.  8 minutes later...power goes off...yay...I shorten my break and head out to the floor, and tell customers that they need to go up front towards the doors.  I had one lady ask "Why?"  You serious lady?  It's fucking dark in the store...only emergency lights are on...Do you really need to ask why?

Well she goes up front and I go to inform the other group I saw heading towards fabrics and auto. Trying to get there attention was less then likely to happen and I told them that they needed to head up to the front of the store for safety reasons.   "Are the cash registers working?"  >.>  Why do I get the idiots??  Why???  Of course they are working...cause you know...the lights are totally off...meaning that there is nothing wrong with the power and the Cash Registers surly are wind and water powered...

My assistant manager of the day kicked all the customers out of the store at this point and locked the doors.  <3 Yay...now we don't have to worry about shoplifters.  The funny thing also I saw...people outside were still trying to open the doors...not like the building is dark right?

Anywho, power comes back on about 30 minutes later and we open the doors 10 minutes later after the cash registers have time to reboot.  My hand scanner isn't working and I can tell you...you never know how much you use something until you can't.  So I have to hand key in serial numbers and such on iPods cause they are too small to scan from the regular base.  So I get my lunch finally about 12:30pm and come back about 1:30.  I should have someone at 3pm so I only had an hour and a half by myself.

Ten minutes till 3, my photo associate comes back to me and tells me to go to break.  I told them that my coverage comes in at 3 and I'll take my break then.

"That's going to be a problem..." She said.

At that moment...I sighed, finished checking out the customer I had and looked at her.  "He called off didn't he?"

No need to reply...I already knew...What a wonderful day this was...the closer called off and no one else was going to be there from 4-midnight.  Well we got it figured out and I still left at 4pm when I was supposed to.

That night I played some more FFXI to relieve my stress...about 6pm...I see a shout "A Goldstruck Gigas" Do you need it?  Briareus fight!

Hell to the yeah!  I jumped on whm and joined up...

An hour later, and much...much to the realization...We weren't going to fight Briareus...instead...going to farm the Key Items...then pop him...I didn't mind...I have the stones...but one person didn't...

So we get all the items about 3 hours later...and a few said "I only have 60 minutes left"  and another said "I have 34 minutes left...your shout said nothing about farming for the key items first...just said the Boss fight."

The next statement made me sick to my stomach.

"Alright, I'll replace you."

Ya..the fight gonna take more then 34 minutes...but the other option was to let him stay outside and have him join in when the NM was down enough.  I mean...it's not like he didn't help get the key items for the alliance leader..right?

The PLD said "You can't expect to get a free ride for the NM Boss."

The way I see it, the group was misled into farming the Key Items, and no one was told how long that was going to take because there is no way of knowing when a key item that isn't 100% to drop will drop...another thing...it's still not really a free ride to the Boss especially if you still have to kill the boss.  The NMs to get the key items are not that hard...really...they aren't.  You really have to work on the final boss because it doesn't mess around.

The person who only have about 34 minutes replied, "Thanks...it really makes me happy that I helped you all get they key items."  And he was kicked after that.  Kaze was RNG in the group, and he left because of all the BS that whole mishap was.  He didn't say anything and I may be a little vengeful...but I /salute him for doing so :)  Because he was the only RNG, and the alliance leader wanted a special WS from him :)

Come to find out...about an hour into the boss fight and such.  All this one ws at a time was just to try for a fucking atma...what the hell???  I didn't come to help you get an atma...I came to kill the damn boss.  Do the ATMA with your ls.  /rant

After it turned "black" we went full out on it and kited it around the lake from there.  The BLMs would nuke and such...and oh one thing to add...

Girlygirl...I swear English must not be her first language...just seem broken...choppy...and just wouldn't answer when asked questions period...  Well she wanted me on my whm to cure the DDs as they TPed.  I don't mind that, that's fine.  She told us to TP off flies though...so we started...and linked like 6 and we all died, and she goes on to say "Pull one and if link comes WHM repose them."

Ya...like my macro didn't tell you I did that...  "Repose Just used it.  << <t> >>"

Ya...so didn't use it..

There were pixies on the other side of the lake...and those don't link/agro.  So a few people said to just TP off those, and that taru said 'No!  TP OFF FLIES"  fuck that...  As i disagreed with that this "Omnivirus" chick goes to say "How hard is it to cure DD and repose links?"

Hello??  Excuse me?  whm/sch repose...and sleep with dark arts... I do not have an AOE sleep to begin with.  And then proceeded to yell at that taru Girlygirl again.

She started with "You listen!  You tp off flies!"

"No you listen!  Flies fucking link and pixies do not!  You want another Wipe??? Go for it!"

Omni again when on to say something and i said in party "If it's so easy why don't you cure them?"

She/he/it ignored me and after we started killing the damn nm we take it down about 45 minutes later...and 2am now...finally I left without a word and was done from there.

Well...I'm done ranting so I'll just leave this blog at that.  :)

Just Another Day

It was such a wonderful evening... not really...

Dynamis - Jeuno was a wreck.  That zone chewed us up and spat us out and then proceeded to stomp there feet and wipe at the front door.  Only good thing that really came of this zone is I am now 5/5 on PUP gear.  yay me.  woo~

Tonight though we had a few new people in our mix, and we pulled the zone a little different...the results...second wipe we had to HP cause we repoped the stones from the AH.  Myself...i HPed about 3 times...thrid time I just went to bed because we had less then twenty minutes left...and I wasn't going to just sit there for 10 for a chance at rng hat.

Work was...work.  Just a long day and tomorrow gonna be twice as long.  There is only going to be me and my other co worker this whole weekend...know what that means?  No...but I'll tell you.  It means I'll have to fight to have someone cover my lunch periods :/  It's gonna be twice as hard because they will most likely have to watch Jewelry and or Photo.  Blah...

Gonna cut this short tonight...I haven't slept well in five nights...and I need to have some sleep before I get up at 6:30am...  Sleep well all.

I'm such a bad blogger...

Wow...I really need to visit you all more often here. I haven't been up to much but working and playing ffxi...the usual. I placed the song above just because it's how I feel at the moment. A lot is going on in my life and I haven't been a good friend to a lot of you, and you know who you are :( I'm very deeply sorry for not being a good friend. I'm just an airhead and a lot going on. On a lighter note...i'm still singing to keep my spirits higher. Also...come one? You can't say that Three Days Grace Nightcore isn't Epic :) Gotta love this song, but I kinda like there softer/sadder song on there latest cd. "Last to Know" Man...that song touches base with me so much...but in the end, I know things will be okay because people will see how "he" was/is and will never change.

Let's see... My birthday is coming up soon...I'll be 22 this year :) Happy Halloween~ It saddens me though, because I'll see xmas stuff on the shelves before my birthday comes and goes :( Darn you holiday madness D:

What else...what else...

Work has been alright. A lot of stress from both idiot customers and just the fact that we are lacking coverage in both Electronics and Photo lab currently. I mean seriously...people do your research before you come in and then huff and puff about the price. A couple came in to look at the "Wii" and I told them the price is 199 for just the system. And went on to say that if the two of them wanted to play at the same time (The Sports Pack and the Sports Resorts that comes with it) They would need another Controller, Nunchuck, and Motion Plus, which would cost around another 70 from there. Then they went on to say they wanted the "wii fitness" and saw the software on in the case. I told them if they wanted the Wii Fit that it would be another 99 from there. Which they went on to argue about it only being 19.98 in the case. Well that's the software people...you still need the board to stand on... ugh, and then went on to say, "I only state the obvious but your TVs aren't working and you wont be selling anything like that." Which I then proceeded to tell him that 1. The tv over the Wii case doesn't even have a system hooked up to it, and that any of the "promotional ads" were back from 2008, and the only game they show that we still currently sell is Mario Party 8...which is only a 10 second clip and still doesn't make the game leave our case any faster. 2. The TV wall which had our other TVs weren't working because there was some issues with the signal in the back office, which we can't get into unless the people working in the office are there, which they weren't. He then proceeded to say in a tone that was implying how stupid we were, "Well since you're too busy to do it then you'll lose your sales." Guess what bud...three TVs sold earlier, and that's more then what we usually sell in the morning! HA!

At that point, i asked my associate for the keys, and remote, flipped the tv on. Walked away from the couple without another word, and went to the TV wall and proceeded to turn off all the TVs, which the man followed me and watched me, I still ignored him at that point and he left. I'm sorry, I don't get paid to deal with rude people and I can sure as hell deal it back.

After fuming for a little bit to myself my co-worker asked me what was up and then we laughed because I'm not one to blow up at work and then proceeded to how she would react if she had to deal with them.

On another note...FFXI is still the number one source of entertainment. I'm leveling BRD for the time being. I had a party invite the other day, and let me tell you, waste of time. This WHM invited me to party in Qufim...i really didn't want to do Qufim...but i figured the faster i get to the 30s, the less inclined to accepting a Qufim party I'll be. I'm level 26...and I need to practice distance and such for Mage's Ballad. So he insists that everyone go to Qufim immediately even though he only has three people in the party. What ever...so I go to qufim, and I end up getting killed by a weapon at the end of the tunnel right where the book and worms are. Well that WHM says "I have raise...brb" and that agrivated me. So i said in party, "While you're gone, I'm going to go and get some food real quick."

Another 5 minutes later I come back, I do have raise on, and in party that WHM seemed to have done a call, and I had been removed from party... WTF? So i raised up and asked him what was going on and why was I kicked, and he ignored me. So I told him in spite "Well i guess you're loss, I had a PL." and he replied with "Sorry, we're full." and at that point, I rested up, waiting for unweakened, and ran out in the middle of the tunnel. And I Foe Requiem a worm. He does Stone II on me and that WHM tries to cast cure II on me. I immediately put blockaid on so that no one can cure me. It may have taken me five minutes, but i soloed that damn worm using my songs and spells. They just stood by and watched. At that point my "friend" shows up and follows me around...and they proceed to check him thirty times over. So at this point, I Requiem another worm and start fighting it with blockaid off so that my friend can heal me and take hate. After i killed the second worm, I see there party running up and down the tunnel. There tanking following me around to "out claim" me and all I could do is laugh. "Am i really that threatening when provoke is faster?" As time goes by, they run back passed me with two Wights on them and my friend started to help them. I mean really...who the hell runs around qufim at level 19 during nighttime? Idiots...

Well going to try and level tonight :/ I want to start wearing my RSE gear and then go from there. Night everyone~

Lonely

Spiders and wind, that's where my memories lie.

It's been a while since I decided to pop onto here and make a post.  A lot has been going through my mind and my priorities haven't been on track.  I haven't been feeling well either.  I can't sleep enough, and my appetite is being a constant bother.  I need to set myself up on a sleeping schedule...and possibly actually go to sleep at a decent hour...for the eating...not sure what I'm going to do with that.  I haven't been eating a lot lately because there hasn't been a plentiful bounty of food in my house lately, and Toasted Cheese and Peanut Butter sandwiches and milk gets really tiring to the point where I gag while eating it.  

A lot of it I'll chalk up to being the lonely gamer I am.  The sleeping I mean.  I have insecurities and I feel the darkness of my room swallow me whole each night.  It scares me...I latch onto who ever's voice I can contact on my phone...  Enough on that...

Above is a picture I drew a while back.  This picture was drawn for a friend, and the caption has a special meaning for me, and I hope it does for my friend.  I really want to get back into drawing again.  I love drawing my friends from FFXI and hearing if they liked it or not.  Some of my work hasn't been the pg-13 type either. I do get embarrassed about drawing those type of pictures, but I don't go slutty or drawn porn if you must ask.

On another happier note...I love to sing.  Singing brightens my day like no other.  I sit at my computer and sing for hours on end.  I play picture in my head of music videos I would love to make if I had any talents in animation at all. /endhappyrant

I has it.

I have been doing a lot of work on FFXI lately.  This is also a reason I haven't been posting either.  This took me five days, with about four to six hours work on each day doing this Cookbook quest in the Valkrum Maw.  The results from this was...  11 SAM 6 THF 2 BST 8 WHM.  All Leg Seals (which clog my inventory -WHM of course)  After I had done this...I had to do some new Abyssea battles to get the Resistance Credits points so I can go get my Orison Pantaloons.  That in itself took me two days work.  The battles were very short...and very rewarding.  I only needed 1k points to get and it took about an hour to get maybe (battle only).  This is where the drama starts...  After I got to level 83, I booked it to the Moogle and started the trial.  I was so excited...and then I went to trade my pants (with trial) and the seals to the moogle...and he tells me "I only do armor...talk to the other moogle."  At that point I went and talked to the other moogle and he in returned told me "I only do weapons...talk tot he other moogle."  WTF???  I looked it up on my trial and it didn't exactly tell me what I had to do.  After an hour or logging and re-logging, trading, and crying (not really), I waited for someone who had an upgraded piece and asked them how they got the moogle to give you your item.  A fellow linkshell member happened to run by with a peice upgraded, and I jumped all over him like flies to honey.

"How did you complete your trial?  The moogle wont take my seals"

"You trade the seals to the crate next to the moogle..."

ooooh.... /facepalm

At that point I traded my seals and got my pants.  I was so happy I chair danced...yes...chair danced.  My anger gone, and all that was left was my happiness expressed in a wriggling dance in my chair.

I'm not sure what I want to talk about from here on out...I haven't been doing much lately except for the stuff listed above.  So for the moment, I'll end this bug here and move onto more music...and speaking of music...check out the blog before this one...it has some awesome youtube talent.

Christina Grimmie & Alex Goot - "DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love"

Check this out! My newest addiction. Absolutely in love with Alex's voice. :)

Late Comming

Look ma!  I'm a ghost!

Well, it's been a while since I've been around.  I'm still alive, just been doing things in real life.  I needed to get away from the stress of the game and actually do things in the real world for a change.  I really didn't tell people I was going away for a bit.  Just needed a break you know?  I'm sorry for not saying anything, but I'm doing good.

I have the itch though...not the nasty kind either.  This itch consists of six hours of working on the new level cap and meriting.  Man...I want to work on my new hat and armor...I just have to wait.  Maybe by the time I return people will have the information up on how to get these seals needed for the upgrade...  I'll just have to see.

If you wonder why this Tetris image is to the left of this paragraph...well...I'll tell you.  The last two days I had a craving to play it.  What did I do?  I went onto Facebook and started playing 2p on Tetris battle.  My computer lags, so I get frustrated when I go to drop my block...just to have it drop like three seconds later in a different spot I wanted it in.  So I started playing and I got two levels yesterday and a few ranks so I'm excited.  Enough on that though.

Today also I went and saw the new Resident Evil movie, and at some parts I could sit there and just guess what was going to happen...or who people where.  "Well...that's obvious to who **** is...he's **** from **** to ****."  Alright, I'll stop with the spoilers, but I do recommend seeing it.  I will also say, the previews to the movie though scared the shit out of me.  I don't remember which movie it was for...but I thought something was going to scare me at the beginning but it didn't...but at the end of the trailer where the little girl is crawling under her blankets with a flashlight and then a loud scream and fast ugly/ghost face jumps out at you...ya...I'm glad I didn't need the restroom just yet...  Another little thing...Do you guys remember that Axe holding big guy from resident evil 5?  Well...he's in here...and he's awsome...yet scary >.>.

Sorry about the short blog, but I have no energy and having to work tomorrow already mentally exhausts me.  So I wish you all a good evening/morning or what ever time you read this.  Have fun, and happy hunting on FFXI.

To a Great Relief

WoE sitting place, the sky is gonna eat me.
I really don't taste like chicken.

Today started off as a bad day work, but it quickly turned into a better one.  The highlight of my day had to of been when me and my co worker were trying to put together the cardboard "3-D" display for Halo Reach.  Laugh all you want, but it was the most fun I had all day.

The box came with a large list of instructions for putting it together, but looking at the instructions...it became easy to tell that the instructions weren't very...instructive.  Most of it was "well...this looks right...hey it is!" sorta touch and go.  When putting together the base we noticed we were missing a piece...and then come to find out it had fallen out of the line of site and laughed at the thirty minutes it took us to finally put together this five foot tall cardboard piece together.  I'll be sure to grab a picture of it to show you our handy work.

Currently, I can't say I've done much on game lately.  I leveled my pup to sixty-four, and I can't tell you how happy that made me.  I've been sixty-three for six months, and I never thought I would get it passed it.  Well anyway, we were doing birds outside of whitegate.  Halfway through it I switched to white mage pup because our healer was running out of magic and I said i'd help out.  From there on out it looked as though my pup was mainly doing the "main healing".  That's fine and all, I know Histrion seems to have a never ending supply of magic, or it seems that way.  Though at times if all he's doing is casting cure iv he starts to run out fast.  So I have to deactivate/reactivate, and there it causes problems.  All in all though, I was pretty happy.

I saw that they finally released the official day they are doing the update for FFXI, which is tomorrow.  I know the abyssea trailer said it would be tomorrow, but SE had failed to mention if this was the "true" date.  Upon reading the notes for it tomorrow, I saw that they are releasing a new NPC that would warp us to the the maws.  This made me thing, "Are they going to charge us gil, or curor?"  I really...REALLY hope it's the later of the two, because we all know that SE isn't going to do it for free.  Even if it ends up being one thousand curor it would be well worth the cost just for the faster access, and no need to wait on a tele.  Too bad there they aren't releasing a Nomad Moogle inside the zones...but maybe they are...we'll find out tomorrow...and if so...I'm so claiming total rights to "I knew they would!" first.

Scars of Abyssea

For the armor they have released on the website also for the new add on /expansion.  I will swear up and down that they are doing a full set.  I mean really, look at this photo.  I'll admit I don't know what all a Blue Mage wears for armor, but can anyone honestly tell me what body piece he's wearing in this photo?  It does not look like perle either from the Vissions part.  You can sorta see the taru Thief in the background, and it looks like he's wearing a matching body.  For the Red Mage, it looks like maybe gloves and the design for the body is different, but I wont swear to the Red Mage.  I may be crazy, but again, if there really is a FULL SET, I call claims to "I told you so" to all that argued with me recently about this photo.

Finally the last thing I will talk about is the video link I posted below.  It was my failed attempt at sharing this to my blog from youtube, but underneath it is the link to the video.  Anyway, the song below is a nightcored version of N Force's "All Or Nothing".  I believe the original is by O-Town, but I could be wrong.  Anyway, this song has been on my mind the last few days and I broke down and downloaded the nightcored version someone had made on youtube, (thank you!).  Either way, if you don't know what nightcore is, I'll just break it down.  Nightcore = slightly/sped up version of already made songs.  I guess you can really sum it up as a type of remix.  The pitch is also usually raised just slightly, but it shouldn't sound chipmunk-y.  Well, I do hope you enjoy it.  I'll give out one more link to a nightcored version of a remix to the famous Titanic Theme.  Enjoy.

My Heart Will Go On

Nightcore III - All Or Nothing

All Or Nothing

My latest addiction.

Long, Interesting Day

Welcome back, this is my spot.

Good morning all, it's 12:06 am CST and I'm having a rotten, yet interesting day.  Rotten how?  Well it just seems that all my wireless adapters and computers just don't want to hook up to the wireless router, even though not even hours before hand they were working just find.  Oh well, I'll start again in the morning.

Today my day consisted of logging into FFXI and yes...sitting in my spot.  Not much went on today because I was mostly working on my room in the real world.  Today I arranged it with the help of my family so that I may have more wall room so everything is not so crowded.

For supper today, I ordered Pizza Hut pizza, and let me tell you...there was a lot.  My grandmother was joining us for dinner tonight and we needed to feed four.  So I ordered the new Italian pizza, a large hand tossed pizza, pepperoni p'zone, and a family order of bread sticks.  The p'zone is my lunch and dinner for the next night.  Well to continue my story, I picked up my grandma and drove to the pizza hut which is not even three minutes from my apartment building.  When I pick up the order, my grandma helps me out with it, and because the Italian pizza is so long, she bangs every door out with it, and she has trouble holding it in "my small car" she claims.  I drive a 2009 Cheve Aveo hatchback.  Love it.

After food, I log in game for a while, and get dragged to helping with a VNM, which I really think we didn't have the people for.  Well, we wiped, and then went to do tier ones.  During this process, a member of the group starts asking vague questions like "do you have one?"  which myself and another ask "one what?" and goes on to say, "well apparently with those answers no one has they vnm abyssite w".  Just on a side note...it really...really drives me crazy when I see someone use "w" instead of "lol".  For those who may not know, "w" is the Japanese way of lol, or that's what I have came to understand.  Moving on...

Spider trial.

As we go on, the same person asks if anyone has one, him meaning a vnm, and I reply that there is one 100+ yalms (ffxi distance) ahead of me, and he goes off with "why are you people making this so hard?"  At this point, I was fed up with his attitude, I really wasn't needed there, so I left.  I don't know why he has this superior attitude, and I'm at a point where I am going to block him, so I don't have to put up with him.

On a brighter note.  I'll talk about a few pictures for now.  The picture on the right is the attempt at the spider trial for the light staff I am working on.  Zandra, the Summoner next to me, has to do this trial for another one of her staffs, to which I am unsure of which she is working on as of now.  We had a few people join us last night, but left us because the internal clock had run it's course.  Soon after this picture, I ran out of fuel and departed for bed after that.

A old photo our the linkshell on our stairs before
the big fall out and change.

The picture on the left is what I would like to refer to as, "the good old days".  This was back when I still cared in general about the game.  Rose is no longer on the server due to starting over from the drama of this server, Ele next to her hardly gets to play, and Purple next to me on the stairs has gone his own way and enjoys himself in another shell.  After the "big fall out" I really lost interested in how I acted in the shell.  I would say things blut and at times rude.  To this day, I still care very little as to how things go.  With everyone's attitude changing in the ls, it's hard to just sit there and go back to the way things were when they are not.  We've had members come and go, and the management in our linkshell seems to go only one way.  At a time, we have three sacs in our shell, when it used to be double that not even three months ago.  The good old days, how I miss thee.

Wall glitch.

This one is a fun one, and this is why I will end this bug with a well..."bug".  I was showed this fun glitch by Rose.  We all had fun, and ran along the edge of the wall and stood atop here and watched and waved at people that ran below us.  It was amusing, and again, one of the last pictures I have of my group of friends when they were all still a group of friends.  I had fun, and one day I'll find a new group of friends where we can do stupid things and learn secrets from one another.

Sorry about the short blog, but tonight, this is all that's really on my mind.  I hope you all have a good Labor Day, I'll be working and earning myself some of that holiday pay tonight.

Another FFXI Blog

Welcome to my world.

Recently I've been sitting at home after the long eight hour days I put into my choice of current occupation doing nothing but play a computer game where all I seem to do is sit around. This game I refer to is Final Fantasy XI, or FFXI.

Why do I start this blog, even though it seems I do nothing of interest to anyone? One answer, I was bored, and my friends have blogs. Will I keep up with this? Who knows, maybe I will, maybe I wont, only time will tell and we'll just have to see where this takes me. Possibly I'll talk about my sitting spots, and possibly go on to tell tales of my grand adventures as I watch others stroll by as they look busy.

If you frequent the server of Cerberus, and happen to play during the evening/early hours of of North American Central Standard Time, you may find me at my favorite sitting spot, Aht Urhgan Whitegate. I frequent the spot atop the stairs, on the right, near the mog house. Most of my friends have come to frequent this spot also, and at times, remind me when I actually happen to stretch my legs that they are in "my spot".

The time now is 1:14am CST. Where am I in the world of FFXI? Well... The Boyahda Tree actually. Tonight I am working on, or shall I say, waiting to work on my trial to complete my cure potency staff. It's been about three hours, two monopoly games, and several nightcored songs on YouTube and still no weather for this. I'm begining to wonder what exactly it really is I'm doing.

I'm not alone tonight, and I haven't been the passed few nights either. I have been accompanying my Linkshell co-leader to these trials hoping to get a few completed where I wont be standing still on this. As a White Mage, a healer, it's hard to do these for myself for the lack of strength my character needs to actually take on one of these...wretched spiders.

Kirameki in Gusgen Mines Treasure Chest.

I must say, I really lack the motivation to really do much in this game. I prefer the company of friends, and lately there has been a lack there of. When I start to think back, I begin to remember all the fun times I had back on Hades with my friend Kirameki. No matter where we were, or what we were doing, one, or both of us, would die. My friend would ask me why I would do things with her if they resulted in my character's demise, I would tell them that no matter what happened, we laughed and had fun.


With the picture on the left of this, we were in Gusgen grabbing keys for Kira's race specific gear she had never went to pick up. During one of these attempts, we had found the chest, and before we opened it, took this little screen shot of "Kira in a Box". So many stories we had together, and about four hours of fun chatting away to our linkshell before it split and the members went there own separate ways.

For now, I believe I have a good start on this so called "Blog", if you ask me why I call my Blog a Bug...well...I really can't tell you why. Kiori Bug has always just stuck with me when I created my name three years ago for my Mithra. Until next time, have fun, and stay safe.